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  • Sharp Objects Ep. 3 - "Fix"

    So, my two cents from the commentary post-podcast about alcoholism and how Camille functions (and PS I love how sheltered y'all are from the worst parts of this disease; reminds me not everyone has the same traumas as I do).

    I come from a long paternal line of alcoholism. My great grandfather died in a two room shack, one filled with empty wine bottles. My grandfather died at 56 due to complications of alcoholism. My father was diagnosed with cirrhosis at 33 and did not stop drinking. He is now 57, jobless, living rent free in a studio apartment that my uncle owns, and subsists on begging from relatives and friends, and a very tiny amount of government benefits. 

    I was his only constant in life, the only one of his four children to always answer phone calls, pay his bills, take him to appointments, write to him in jail, and clean up his messes. I only recently (this past month) cut him off after a series of repeatedly insane accusations brought on by hallucinations and paranoia in which he imagined I was plotting with the rest of the family against him. I'm currently on a journey to heal, and have made the choice to cut him off completely until he gets help (he won't; he will die alone and I will be devastated. The best I can do is steel myself). 

    That being said, yes, hallucinating while drinking is absolutely something that happens to chronic alcoholics. They hear voices, imagine people who aren't there, become paranoid. It is much like schizophrenia. They lose many bodily functions, not just "toilet" related. They drool, sway, cannot focus, see double, or halo effects. Or so has been my experience. 

    And it is also possible to function for a long time with no real outward signs physically, for those who think Camille is too "beautiful" to be that bad of an alcoholic. My dad's looks did not start to go until his early 40's, despite near daily drinking (outside of the occasional jail sentence when he was dry). He remained very handsome and charming; the life of the party. 

    He has recently graduated to drinking the cheapest 1/5 of whiskey you can get per day, straight (much like Camille and her vodka). It tastes horrendous. It's probably not even really whiskey, and his delusions are ramping up. So, yeah...

    IDK. This has been Oversharing Corner. LOL
  • Sharp Objects Ep. 3 - "Fix"

    @A_Ron_Hubbard, I'm so grateful you guys are covering Sharp Objects, specifically with your family experience. While it's interesting listening to some of the general coverage, having grown up with a Narcissist-Borderline Southern mother like Adora, I am constantly waiting for podcasters coming from non-Borderline families to misunderstand how realistic she is or complain that Camille doesn't respond like they would. It's a relief to tune into your coverage and know you will get it.

    I was raised by my single mother (narcissist), beautiful and haunted by welcomed tragedy much like Adora, and spent a lot of time with my aunt (psychopath- textbook charmer) and I can tell you the shades of push/pull love you/hate you and gaslighting while loving and hating someone all at once are all too real. This is why I love these new dark genres that are emerging. It IS so real and based in truth. Make me feel sane.

    Good on you for surviving with an awareness. 
  • Hulu

    I sign up every few months, get my BH 90210 marathon on (don't judge- it's my M*A*S*H*), and then always end up canceling it because there's nothing else on it that I enjoy. 
  • 905 - What Comes After

    I totally agree with people who say they liked it, and this is coming from someone who has been hate watching for the last two seasons. Is there better TV? Yes. Has this show sucked for a long time, with only nuggets of goodness? Absolutely. Will I stop watching? I'd like to, but no. At this point I'm invested. and after that drippy, ooey, gooey, episode, I am intrigued again. This isn't meant to be good TV, but it's getting better!

    From what I have pieced together, the movies to come will give us more insight into the world at large, what caused it, how other countries are doing, is there still a government, etc... I'm excited to see that.

    And for anyone trying to figure out how on earth Rick won't fight tooth and nail to get back to Michonne and Little Ass Kicker and are speculating he'll be held against his will or locked up so "what's the use"? Let's take a page out of the Outlander playbook: It will be nearly impossible for him to do so.

    I'll call it here and now: they're taking him to another country, over sea/ocean, and the means to get back are completely in control by others. He can't get a plane, or the skill to navigate a boat across the ocean. Oh,  the ocean you say? Like, perhaps... Great Britain? Where Andy is from? It's the best of both worlds. He can continue Rick's story, and be back home shooting. 

    So he bides his time, gains trust, power, etc across the ocean until the time that the AMC execs decide to call him back for the last season/episodes for reunification, and we will allllll tune in to see the big hullabaloo.

    PS- I'm cross posting some of this on Reddit to share my thoughts as well, in case anyone sees any duplication. 'Tis me. 
  • Sharp Objects Ep. 5 - "Closer"

    This episode...... Totally triggered traumas for me after the shopping scene. Watching the ping pong back and forth innocent dropping of information to get the others in trouble... My psychopath aunt and her "protege" daughter. 

    You brought up whether it was too late for Amma. It probably is.

    My cousin, although I do not believe she is a psychopath like her mother, was manipulated and raised to act just like her. So while she may not have the same motivations as my aunt, she mimics her behavior, mainly as a way to get in her mother's good graces, especially when she is in trouble. 

    She still lives with my aunt at aqe 30, with no signs of leaving ever. They feed off one another. She's like the cat in Cinderella, purring on my aunt's lap and being petted.