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The theme of self-destruction was very powerful for me, especially since I haven't been writing much lately. Especially since less than 1 month ago I had one of those magical writing days you only have once in every like 2 years. (They are the best thing in the world, let me tell you. Sex, food, drugs, nothing is better than the magical writing day that happens once in every like 2 years.)
But still, writing is a net positive for me in almost every respect. The first 10 minutes are hell, but then it's just great, and it's almost never not great, and so fucking why don't I do it? Why am I ruining this good thing?
But about the movie...
The movie blatantly states it's about self-destruction and then annihilation.
Self-destruction is the point of showing Lena's affair. She had a happy marriage, but she still blew it up. Somehow her husband knew about it; I think because he saw it from the Shimmer. And that's why he didn't want to leave the Shimmer. Jim and Aron are both incredibly smart, so I'm surprised that they didn't pick up on the affair's importance to the theme — regardless of how Lena's husband saw the affair or even if he saw. There was a line of dialogue directly referencing it, right? But this is an anomaly, them both missing something like that. So maybe I'm overestimating this as obvious.
Self-destruction is in our cells, but the movie posits that it's in our minds too, in our psychology. We are capable of psychological cancer.
And the Shimmer was picking up on all of that, because the psychologist character kept feeding it people who had nothing to lose. Therefore, the Shimmer was mimicking that hopelessness, that death of self.
One could argue, "Oh, so literally everyone who walked into the Shimmer was someone who, in that moment, happened to want to self-destruct? That's convenient." And I would say, "No, I think it's more that we all have the capacity for self-destruction, latent and subconscious. The convenient thing is that Lena was the first person to show the Shimmer that we also have the capacity to be a phoenix, reborn from our own ashes."
So Lena is the Shimmer reborn, in that final image of the film. She's definitely herself reborn too — I don't buy into the mirror Lena ending theories, which subvert the whole movie. I think the film was too finely written to be in service of a twist. I think we're supposed to know Lena has got the Shimmer in her. Whatever that means. Thematically, though, she faced her own tendency towards self-destruction (vis-a-vis the faceless clone). She stopped fighting it; she saw herself in it; and then she could overcome it. And now she is something new. New, but also herself. Changed.
Her husband, however, did die in the Shimmer. And a clone husband at the end doesn't fit thematically if you think about it in terms of him. In terms of Lena, he represents the mentality of her affair: a shadow of himself, a warm body, an aspect no longer worth regarding. And he represents all the work she is going to have to do to rebuild this marriage, to rebuild the true vision/version of her husband.
BTdubs, all my ATL folks (who are evidently legion)...
I highly recommend the Civil Rights Museum, right next to the Coke Museum downtown... there's this "exhibit" where you sit at a counter and it replicates the experience of protestors in the 60s. It was harrowing and I'm tearing up just thinking about it... not in a sad way, in a terrified way. It's... I mean, there are warning signs all around it and afterwards you realize not only are they not overkill, they're probably underkill.
When I was consciously uncoupling from these streamers this weekend I noticed Tim's twitter profile says, "Jesus lovin' gamer" first thing. That clicked for me. I've grown up around people who put similar sentiments in their social media profiles and I'm still friends with many of them. As I've discovered in my coming-out journey, some of them are gay-friendly, some not. IE, some of them are more enlightened than others. But all of them are in a community where leadership says that being gay is an abomination to God. That includes Ninja, who is Catholic, whose brother is a Catholic minister (or something) and has "I love Jesus and his holy Catholic Church" pinned to the top of his Twitter.
I don't know anything about Lupo's beliefs, nor do I care enough to research them, but I would not be surprised if he's Catholic or Protestant or whatever.
So of course we're seeing some Mike Pence bullshit from these guys.
BTW, Tim said that he won't let his wife have Instagram or Twitter because of things people might say to her.
And I thought all the chemistry between Lupo and Ninja was adorable and that they were getting homophobic jokes because of course they were, and they were retweeting them because they saw nothing wrong with romance between men and understood that in actuality they were just friends.
But I no longer think that.
So consider my gay-ness being put off by their attitude as much as my female-ness. And none of those things define me as a person, so I don't really care if anyone continues to enjoy them and their entertainment — especially because it's healthy to care less about things you can't control — but that's a big fucking EH for me.
Maybe I can get on the Nickmercs train, I dunno.
Thanks for the nice words, everyone. That was surreal, I had about 20 minutes of fight-or-flight when the tweets first started rolling in where it dawned on me I'd wandered into the Kotaku In Action neighborhood and was going to get doxxed. That adrenaline spike kept me wide awake until 4am, and I was already getting shit sleep before that. I got 8 hours last night, I feel better.
LordBy said:Presuming his base believes what is reported, how can some stop now?
They supported him on birtherism
They supported him through Mexicans are rapists
They supported him through pussy grabbing
They supported him after harassment/assault charges from over a dozen women
They supported his wanting to jail his political opponent
They supported his initial refusal to disavow David Duke
They supported him after mocking a reporter’s disability
They supported him declaring McCain wasn’t a hero
They supported his declaration of the press as the enemy of the people
They supported him on the election being rigged
The supported his reneging on commitments to release taxes and divest businesses
They supported him on millions of illegal votes and the inaugural crowd size
They supported him after Flynn and Comey
They supported his equivocating on white nationalists carrying torches and chanting Nazi slogans
They supported him after Manafort and Papadopoulos
They supported him after Roy Moore
They supported him after the affairs with Stormy and Karen McDougal
They supported him on the NK fiasco
They support him after attacks on NATO
They support him after he declares the EU a foe
They support the thousands of false statements he has made since taking office
Etc, etc, etc, etc
At some point you’d just look silly if you drew a line after everything you’ve already held your nose for.
As someone who left a religion they fervently believed until they were 20, and deconverted over 10 years, it's not about looking silly so much as genuinely identifying with those beliefs. I think these people genuinely identify with Trump and leaving him would be painful and cause an ego crisis, and that's not done lightly. "Looking silly" is a like a mosquito bite of pain compared to dissecting your own brain to see how it works.
Would you rather look silly or realize everything you thought you had that was protecting you from being duped is actually non-existent? It's vulnerable-making and personal, and once you get through it, no one can make you feel worse than you've already made yourself feel.
Michelle said:I came in here all curious about everyone’s feelings about James Gunn & here y’all are talking about pizza toppings again. lol, love it. Btw, olives are awesome, so is pineapple, bell peppers belong nowhere near a pizza of any kind, and anchovies pretty much suck worse than a lot of things. Btw, if you put bbq sauce and bacon on Hawaiian pizza it’s pretty much
You like it? I think it's like trolling. There should be a thread for this, or if everyone is done talking about the actual thread, let it sink. For just the reason you mentioned... you expect on-topic comments.
What can I say, I think organization is important.
duncanpowers said:The blood under John Keane's bed from last episode... Could he be cutting as well?
People comment on Camille's lack of journalistic skill/integrity, but not Detective Willis's complete lack of chill with Camille. For someone as wary as a detective, calling their tour of the woods a date and then saying they're seeing each other is almost too much to be believable. It feels like it should be manipulative to get closer to a source of certain information, but from interviews with Chris Messina, he's being entirely genuine.
I do love how adroit he is with taking the temperature of the room which somewhat makes up for his apparent lack of caution in hooking up with the journalist covering his case. He comes out from the house joking about not being allowed to talk to her mother, but instantly changes expression when he sees Camille's face as if he knows exactly the spider web he walked out of. He might not know the depth and degree of Camille's damage, but he sees it and lets her know he's still on her side, and that is a rare quality for any character but especially a male one in stories like these.
Yes! I didn't expect any kind of romance with this but I hope they walk away from this together. When he hands over his beer with a straight face, that was absolutely adorable.
MattyWeaves said:History Buffs - A...History Buff... breaks down historical movies and how accurate they are in fine detail.....and Rome.
I'm all over that.
Political commentary from a Trans-woman
ContraPoints is SO good. Recently discovered that one. That's one of those that I immediately began telling people about.